contraversial ramblings

I tend to over think everything. I'm also a bit paranoid. (hey, even when I'm not high thank you very much). Due to my overthinking, (which goes especially haywire on days when I don't sleep) I tend to come up with some rather bizzare ways of looking at the world. For example, Monogomy... (something I'm not a real big fan of) When did society come to the conclusion that human beings are supposed to find everything their looking for in one person? Isn't that just a bit unrealistic? I don't even have one close friend, I have four. They say that drugs chip away at our inhabitions, if that's the case why do we have those inhabitions in the first place? I guess maye it's better put - Are we a better society for "building in" the inhabitions that we inevitably are going to want to chip away at? Does society play a more beneath the surface, besides the in your face, role than we want to acknowledge much less accept? All this leads me back to where those inhabitions come from in the first place. This leads me to another contraversial topic, religion. Don't get me wrong, I think that believing in some type of morals and values is essential to existing in the world. I just think that religion has been skewed away from what it was originally ment to be. Why? Power. Power over each other, and not just physical power. Emotional power. The power to control the ways that people think, believe and feel. Look at Catholicism for example. They took Pagan beliefs and incorporated them into their own in order to gain control over the common folk of the time (mind you I once found pagan described as the religion of the common folk). Catholicism (the birthplace of most, if not all modern Christian religion) changed more than just the belief's of the people it touched. It changed the way that entire races and even the sexes were viewed. I think religion, at least Christianity, has done more harm than help where human inhabitions are concerned. Sex (hey look, I rolled around to Mahnogamy again... well sorta) is a good example. In many Pagan belief systems, sexual acts were seen as something to be celebrated. In many Christian belief systems, sexual acts are seen as evil or being of the darker side of life. It hasn't been until the last say ten - twenty years that the taboo that sexual acts are not to be spoken of, or are shameful has started to change. So what does all this have to do with the fact that I've been up for way to long? Well, I was raised in the Catholic religion. I'm not trying to deny my own free will, but I think that some of the inhabitions and insecurities that I attempt to drown out, come out of the things that I was taught (whether inadverently or not) as a child. Ultimatley we are responsible for the way that we choose to believe and the things that we do. I question though "our" ability to seperate the whispers of the past...